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Thursday, November 10th, 2005
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10:52 pm
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NO ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) q_slash didn't delete her. it was suspended for spamming my Silent Hill website in *GAAAASP!* Silenthill Communities! SHOCKER!
Anyways, She is currently appealing. The new lj is anarchicq
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| Thursday, December 9th, 2004
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10:11 am - Goody twoshoes
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| You scored as Neutral Good. A Neutral Good person tries to do the "goodest" thing possible. These people are willing to work with the law to accomplish their goal, but if the law is corrupt they are just as willing to tear it down. To these people, doing what's right is the most important thing, regardless of rules, customs, or laws. Neutral Good | | 75% | Chaotic Evil | | 75% | True Neutral | | 75% | Lawful Evil | | 60% | Chaotic Good | | 60% | Neutral Evil | | 55% | Lawful Good | | 35% | Chaotic Neutral | | 25% | Lawful Neutral | | 5% | </td>
What is your Alignment?
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current mood:  good
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| Friday, November 12th, 2004
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12:24 pm - I GOT A JOB!
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9:49 am - Hybred!
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| Wednesday, October 13th, 2004
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9:24 am - Cheese-y snack
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I ate a suggestivly shaped Cheesie yesterday. It was a damn good Cheesie!
In other news, I've been thinking again. Alot.
S'funny, Over in C-O-B, it seems NecroRaver is thinking too. Dunno about what though.I don't talk with him, he's creepy.
Anyways, I've been thinking about long held friends, and what they're going through and such. I'm thinking about how much I want to hold them and make it alright. Guess I'm just empathetic.
I try. I try to get this guy to leave his home, and face his skinny li'l back on his work for just a few hours and live for a little while. We all need to let go, sometimes; live crazy and do things we'll regret later. Life's a gift, at least, that's what my people say. I squandered a good chunk of mine, and I got exile handed to me. I'm fine with that.
But he has no one and nothing. That's not healthy. I'm worried his choices, and lack of options will widdle him down to nothingness.
I think of him as a very good and careing friend, and I just want him to find joy. He deserves it.
current mood:  gloomy
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| Thursday, October 7th, 2004
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7:51 pm - Would you? Would you really?
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( ) go out with me?
( ) give me your number?
( ) let me kiss you?
( ) have sex with me?
( ) play an SM scene with me?
( ) watch a movie with me... even a really sappy one?
( ) let me take you out to dinner?
( ) drive me somewhere/anywhere?
( ) take a shower with me?
( ) be my gf/bf?
( ) have a fling with me?
( ) listen to me if I called you, crying, even if you were out with all of your friends?
( ) buy me a drink if I didn't have mone?
( ) take me home for the night?
( ) let me sleep in your bed?
( ) sing car karaoke with me?
( ) sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
( ) re-post this for me to answer your questions?
( ) come and pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of petrol in the middle of nowhere?
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| Tuesday, September 28th, 2004
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11:21 am - Midlife realization
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Juniper and Karan are in love. This we know.
We also know the next logical step in that relationship.
It's made me realize- Someday, I'm going to be a grandparent.
I never expect to be one, since I never expected to have a family. And usually guys don't get pregnant.
I'm not even 200 and The prospect of being a grandparent stuns me. I'm too young. Far, far too young.
Geeze! Well, least I've not found any grey hairs....
current mood:  lethargic
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| Monday, September 27th, 2004
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11:06 am - Teenagers
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I relented, And apparently Juni and Karan are going to stay together forever.
First comes love...Yeah.
I can feel myself shudder.
I'm a horrible parent.
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| Monday, September 20th, 2004
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9:21 am - Browsing LJ...
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I found the hottest thing:
"I'm going to have to memorize the Latin for "I will fuck you up the ass and make you give me head." Should work.
Too bad I don't have anything sharpish. "You don't know where I've been! (*fling blood*)" is always fun."
In. Latin! IN LATIN! DEAR FUCKIN' GOD WOULD THAT BE HOT!
*Cough*
Uh...that's all I wanted to say.
current mood:  hot
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| Sunday, August 29th, 2004
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4:50 pm
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| Tuesday, August 24th, 2004
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4:37 pm - Fucker.
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| Thursday, July 1st, 2004
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10:01 pm - Seeing, and saw...see saw
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Is it possible to see, without actually recognizing? To realize at a second, third, fourth glance?
I'm oblivious, but at the time, I was also held back by my own hopeful delusions.
I believe now, if we don't end our existance before hand, that we're all given two chances with love. Pure, unbridled, totally defined love.
The first time is a bridge from innocence and self-discovery, to happyness and ego-deplition. The first is a guidence, a blind road.
The second is a last chance. One final taste of all the world's fruits.
But, fruits wither, don't they?
I've beaten that road with my boots, and I've eaten that fruit. I'm lost, and sadly empty-gulletted.
But, sustained.
Now knowing what I know, I've stepped from that road, and the fruit made me stronger.
I don't expect to find love again. Not that of a lover, but I have to put the past to rest...
I sound like a pot addict on a munchies kick. Heh.
Seeing, but not recognizing...About two days ago, I heared a voice. It wasn't spectacular or mesmerizing by any means, but it was pleasent in it's humor. I saw perfect, jadded black slits of a soul, un-expecting, yet slightly curious towards me. I was just as curious, I must admit. But finally, I saw how he moved. Like a melted pewter feline. Having the freedom of liquid, yet still mantaining the grace of the cat. I've seen him before, since we are both a part of a collective...But, never have I truely studied this creature...this...demon.
Years ago, I confronted him, and he seemed uninterested, patronizing, dismissive.
...Yet now...
Heh.
Gun Porn.
current mood:  thoughtful
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| Friday, June 18th, 2004
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9:18 am - Well crap.
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I can so see myself doing this...Well, that was a blow to ..everything good I was invisioning for Prism
"Pet"
Don't fret precious I'm here, step away from the window
Go back to sleep
Lay your head down child
I won't let the boogeyman come
Counting bodies like sheep
To the rhythm of the war drums
Pay no mind to the rabble
Pay no mind to the rabble
Head down, go to sleep
To the rhythm of the war drums
Pay no mind what other voices say
They don't care about you, like I do, like I do
Safe from pain and truth and choice and other poison devils,
See, they don't give a fuck about you, like I do.
Just stay with me, safe and ignorant,
Go back to sleep
Go back to sleep
Lay your head down child
I won't let the boogeyman come
Count the bodies like sheep
To the rhythm of the war drums
Pay no mind to the rabble
Pay no mind to the rabble
Head down, go to sleep to the rhythm of the war drums
I'll be the one to protect you from
Your enemies and all your demons
I'll be the one to protect you from
A will to survive and a voice of reason
I'll be the one to protect you from
Your enemies and your choices son
They're one in the same
I must isolate you
Isolate and save you from yourself
Swayin to the rhythm of the new world order and
Count the bodies like sheep to the rhythm of the war drums
The boogeymen are coming
The boogeymen are coming
Keep your head down, go to sleep, to the rhythm of a war drums
Stay with me
Safe and ignorant
Just stay with me
Hold you and protect you from the other ones
The evil ones
Don't love you son,
Go back to sleep
-A Perfect Circle "Pet"
current mood:  crappy
current music: A Perfect Circle - Pet
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| Monday, May 24th, 2004
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10:37 am - All my dream have turned to dust
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...And it's over before it starts...
Another name
to the Epitaph
upon the tombstone
That is my libido
Mercutio Io.
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| Monday, May 17th, 2004
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9:29 am - Lonely..
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I'm listening to After Forever....and it's made me miss SIlver.
Nyerf.
current mood: lonely
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| Thursday, April 15th, 2004
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5:10 pm - Magdalena
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Anyone know the A Perfect Circle song "Magdalena"? No? Well...I met someone...and the song just...clicks. You know..save for the fact the song's about a chick. He's a villain. Not someone I want to take home to Pee...but GODS he's geogeous...
It's Kubrickian. In the movie Eyes Wide Shut, Nichole Kidman's character was propasitioned by a man, and if he asked her to throw it all a way, her life, her husband and children, for a night with him, She would. "It was both tender...and sad. At that moment you (her husbad) were dearer to me then ever..." A Strange psychosis..but one I think I understand. I would never jeopardy my family for anyone, but sometimes there's this trembleing...and it's as if you're in a small hole..and just out of reach is salvation. Thrill.
I miss being thrilled...
overcome by your moving temple
overcome by this holiest of altars
so pure, so rare
to witness such a lovely goddess
I lost my self control
beyond compelled to throw this dollar down
before your holiest of altars
I'll sell my soul, my self esteem
a dollar at a time for one chance, one kiss
one taste of you my magdalena
I've beared witness to this place, this lair, so long forgotten
so pure, so rare, to witness such a lovely goddess
and I'd sell my soul, my self-esteem
a dollar at a time for one chance, one kiss,
one taste of you my black madonna
I'll sell my soul, my self-esteem
a dollar at a time
for one taste, one taste
one taste of you my magdalena
current mood:  horny
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| Wednesday, April 14th, 2004
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9:22 am - Three times the charm...
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I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want(anything goes). Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything
current mood: apathetic
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| Monday, March 29th, 2004
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5:42 pm - I feel....bogged down....
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I feel crappy. Crappy and optimistic...and pesssimistic and narssistic all at once.
I want to move on. I wan't more then anything to move on. I even said to Arlyn "I'm ready to move on". So why can't I?
I don't feel for Git past admiration and comaradery. He's fun, he's smart, he's cute and sexy...
But he's just a friend. And I know it will always be that way.
And I accept that.
But I cannot help but feel ...neglected, not good enough...dissapointed.
. . .weak. . .
Fuck man, I've more important things to think about. Prism for one. . .
I still miss love. I still miss loving and being loved.
I think Arlyn and I have digressed into 'friends with benefits'...'cept I'm a freeze now.
Everything's so jumbled. I know I need a fresh start, a new troup of friends and prospective lovers. I need to be shiney and new. Like a virgin!
HEY!
Heh. Sorry bout that.
I just...need...something. Someone.
"Can...anybody ....find me....somebody to....love...?"-Queen
current mood: lonely
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| Wednesday, January 7th, 2004
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9:14 pm - Thinking...
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Months ago I told a friend something that had the potential to hurt him, or just alienate our friendship. At the time he took it well, but now, months later, he's reflected on it, and realized how hurtful it could be.
And now I feel guilty. I wanna know what I can do to make it up to him...suggestions?
current mood:  confused
current music: Stabbing Westward - The Only Thing
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| Monday, January 5th, 2004
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10:02 pm - I'm baaaaa-aaaack
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1) Spell out your name using bands:
S - Stabbing Westward
U - u2
I - Incubus
C - Crash test Dummies
I - Iggy Pop
D - Doors
E - Evanesance
2) Have you ever had a song written about you?
No
3) What song makes you cry?
The Air I breathe - Stabbing Westward
4) What song makes you happy?
Proclaimers - 500 miles
5) What do you like to listen to before bed?
Whatever.
6) Has been replaced with trained Monkeys
WOO!
7) Who was/were your idols when you were younger?
...none.
8) First album you ever bought?
Stabbing Westward - Wither,blister, burn & Peel.
current music: Stabbing Westward - Sometimes it hurts
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